"So let’s shake hands and reach across those party lines."

It's really early in the morning and almost no one is online or actually awake. I just checked my email awaiting for my script. But Celin sent the wrong stuff and sent the project plan instead. Gosh, and she's still sleeping, i think. I can't reach her. She seems to be staying in the mountains, no offense. Worse still, we're actually going to film today and there's no script. Hopefully we can remember what to do cuz there are many changes from the original. Oh, Aisha, it's not the history recording actually. It something to do with the media literacy thing.

The only person online in MSN is Siyu. And i can't talk to her cuz it might be in chinese. It takes me long time to type what i wanna say. So, i'm just bored and stressing out. There's even a baby crying downstairs. -.- , irritating.

Celin ): .

Cold Rain.

It's been a very long time since i've updated. My blog had also became a very dead blog. I'll try to update more if i've got time. Anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR people. Oh, i've got a new phone too, Nokia X3. HAHAHA :D .

There had been homework piling up and all. On Tuesday, my group will be coming over for this video shooting for our project. Haha, i just can't wait. Then coming Sunday, will be going to Jia Xuan's place for CNY.

Today's just a nice day to sleep. It has been raining non stop. But i've got to wake up early today to go to church and came back after wards. Esh, homeworks are getting harder and pissing me off ): . Will update again soon, just don't feel like doing it now.

I ask myself, "When will exciting things happen again?" .

All the right feelings.

It was an uninteresting day. Woke up late again and played a little maple and went out to my aunt place. Cousins, sister and I watched a rather boring movie and they went to do up the christmas tree. Haha. My sister kept calling the ornaments elements, she just can't get it right. Anyway, soon enough, I'm going to be a year older. I just can't wait to get a little mature in the mind.

I'll soon be addicted to maple all over again. Well, it's the holidays. As soon as school is going to start, I'll stop playing. No, seriously. Everything seems to be happening soon enough. Haha, kinda weird though.

Anyway, will be going to this island tomorrow and be stranded there forever. Haha, kidding. But seriously, I'll be going to this island.

Ha, shall end here.

I need some help, some inspiration, but its not coming easily.

Sweet Smelling Rain.

At Grandma's house now. It's seriously boring. At least i brought my science homework and this lappy. The WIFI is really bad here. Almost everything lags. HAHAHA, can't go out and walk around the yard, it's raining so heavily. Time passes so slowly when you're bored. There is still hours until the time to get home.

Unknown of what's real and what's not.

Pleasure Unentertained

Precisely, nothing much happens everyday when you're not in school. Most of the time, we would just sit in front of the computer like zombies. Including me. Even my sister years younger from me is crying out loud how internet is not working for her.

I've stopped thinking about what's going on in my mind. The word, 'fantasy' just got thrown into the bin. Recently, i've stopped using the computer and even started reading. Fictional, documentary, comics. They make my day.

Sigh, it's dead boring. There are just times i feel like going out and just staying home. Shall end here.

Silence at 12

Haha (: . It's been a very long time since a lasted blog again. But seriously, i don't feel like there's anything to blog about. Anyway, the year is going to end soon. I'm going to work harder next year :D ! It's great how i'm going to be in the same class as Aisha & Jia Xuan (: ! (PLUS YAOXUAN) HAHAHAHA.

Went to school today... Have been going back for the past few days. I didn't get good sleep. WHAT A PITY. I think i'll talk about tmrw as there is nothing much about today.

I'm going to the library tmrw, after that i think i'll hurriedly eat lunch and meet my other friends and go somewhere. HAHA. Then i think i'll end the day feeling contented w what i've done (: .

And i'll end here as well.

Just a little salt.

Next Monday would be the last of exams. Great :D . Subject tested today was D&T and Literature. Haha, it was kinda ok. D&T was freaking me out a little. So did Ahma Shan, hopefully she'll get it. Haiz, gosh, it's just her guy tt is pulling our clique far apart. I'm going to say GOSH again. Gosh. You've changed babe :D . That's meant t be kinda a bad thing for the clique though. Hope it goes well.

It has been another long time since i've blog. Seriously, there isn't any much to blog abt. Anyway, after exams, they will start CCA again, which suck. I haven't even prepare for my CCA exam. -.- .. If i don't get tt freaking badge, it's gna be embarrassing.

Hahahah! When I was doing Literature test, there was this guy in the hall singing 'Don't Stop Believing' and at the chorus, he's suppose t hit the high note, he started screaming. Haha! So it was like, "Don't stop BELIEVING!! I can't take this FEELING!!" Haha. It was really weird. Ahma Shan and Aidil said i sing better than him :D . Yay. Normally, i think my singing kinda suck. Well, maybe that's just not my talent.

I'll going somewhere w my cousin later. Hopefully, it would be fun enough for me. Furthermore, it's so hot outside, but seriously, i was lazy t go. I still don't feel like going. But nevermind, it's been ages since i've spent time w my cousin. Actually, it has been only 2 weeks. T.T .. Anyway, I don't feel like blogging anymore. I'm still bored though. One of the animes i've watch have season 2 already. GREAT. It has been months. But another of the anime i watched, hasn't come out w a season 2 yet. LOL.

That may be torturing, but just move that aside. Cuz, it suck.

Tell me once again.

:D . Back to posting. EOY is coming soon and almost everyone is kinda stressed about it. I've started studying but stopped in a few days. I NEED TO BRUSH UP MORE. There's history test today and all i did was revise half of the chapter. The whole 2 pages at the back i do not even kno how to do. Luckily, today no remedial :D ! In the end, 4/5 of the clique intended to study in the library. But we did very few things. Haix. Now we kno we can't study w comp around. I'm still rushing w my HE homework and i'm doing it right now. Yeah. -.- .. Still have to type and print scripts for play. Clique and I gna rehears on Saturday. Hopefully everything will turn out fine. Damnedyou, homework. I'VEGOTTASTUDYHARDER. This suck. Going off now.

I could sit here for hours and ask God this question, " Is everyone here make believe? "

This isn't so bad.

Hoho, i suddenly thought of updating again. I've been lazy again -.- .. Watching shows every single day and not doing anything much. School will open soon anyway. Finished a few of my work and left a few. Currently doing my HE homework now. It's a bore. I guess i'll just post on what i did today for this post.

Woke up in the afternoon as usual. Got a call from my tuition teacher that would be having tuition half hour later after my lunch. During that half hour, i rushed to finish my tuition homework which i did not even touched on for 2 weeks. After tuition went to do this darning homework thn at the same time, use the comp like now :D . Thn i went to bathe thn i went to eat dinner which is better thn usual and made me eat 2 bowls of rice instead of 1 (: . Which was good, well, for me. Thn i on the comp again. And multi-task. Now i'm kinda bored. Yeah, so, i'm going to watch shows or animes or what so ever that can entertain me. Maybe youtube. I miss many of annoyingorange shows :D .

Soo, bye :] .

Long gone.

HEEEEY, long time since i've updated. I've been very lazy. I guess i'll be changing my blogskin soon. This one suck. Okay, have been lazy and busy lately as there are common tests and many other test. I can't use the comp for so long anymore. The most is watch animes.

I'm not sure abt the members in the clique anymore. Even Shanice Ahma agrees w me :D . She broke her leg and tt's very bad. I've got to escort her everywhere. Not bad for a grandchild huh? Weird family. They actually talks abt divorces and there's even a 'step' side of the family. -.- What a complicated family .__. .. I'm really bored right now.

Anyway, had history test today. After recess, Yongwei chased me like mad just cuz i poked her once -.- .. I made Aidil fall for 2 times :( . I saw obscene stuff. There's bag check today. DM caught my gums.

DM: What's tt?
ME: A container?
DM: What's inside?
ME: (Opens 'container') Gum.
DM: I better not see this again, okay?
ME: *nods*

WHATTHEHELL.

Went to eat at PP w Siti and Kelvan today. Thn we went to this wulu rooftop place and slack for a while. I saw spider mites on a leaf, i dunno whether it's spider mites or not, but Kelvan says so :/ . Thn we homed and talked in msn for a while -.- .. Everyt is for a while huh? BOTH OF THEM GROUNDED ME. -.- Father and sist are 'grounders'.

There will be National Day Celebration tmrw. So half day :D . Thn Tuesday also half day :D . I've got chosen to go to the hall thing. It's gna suck. Confirm those people will keep giving speech. And will tell us to shut up when we make noise. Pssh. I wished i didn't have to go. Ft said have to go one. Haiz.

Going off now.

Everything is the way it is.

Something new, probably.

Heeeeeh :D ! Back from Japan. It was cool there. The weather was even better it was awesome! There is some kinda cool sensation. LOL. .__. I'm crazy. ... Anyw, took thousands of picture until memory card in camera full. Need delete those other rotten pictures -.- .. I got t kno tt Hokkaido actually snow for 6 months and the other 6 months are just so called 'without snow'. Woooohoooo, i found out which flower i actually like, it's tt one i took on top, which is the main picture of this blog? It's nice (: . Pst, my sister is in the background. I actually shouted at her t move away. But instead she walked on tt thing over there. But nevermind, she made it look nice anyway :D .

Well, i saw many things. Some ppl might think it's boring as all you can see is mountains, flowers, trees, dumb things, ppl, animals (bears and foxes, Woo, i got t feed them), and other stuff, can't really rmbr. I saw my own puke a few times too. Heeeh, there is seasick, but ever heard of airplane-sick? I had tt -.- .. Puked for many times in the plane, it's all the food fault plus water. The first time i puked, i puked my dinner.. The other time, i puked water. Thn when coming back, i puked all the chicken i ate on the plane .__. . And the time when flying t Singapore, i didn't eat any meals on the plane :D . I didn't even puke! It might be because of the entertainment - movies. I watched loads of them. I watched Valentine's Day (it was great opportunity as my parents would not allow me t watch, obviously, there were weird stuff), The Spy Next Door (it was really funny :D), The Frog Princess? (i didn't really cared what it's called), Alice in Wonderland (thought of watching it again?). Yeah, others were boring so even though there are movies which i watched before, i thought of watching again t kill time. 6 hours in the plane.. Plus another 3. Rough.

Not only went t Japan, i went t Korea too. Just for the shopping actually. Got a shirt (not exactly a shirt), a dress? (not exactly a dress). Mum bought many facial stuff and all tt. I would say, a ton. (Not exactly..) .

I'll just sum everything in my trip cuz, it's a lot of stuff. I went t Japan and Korea. I had fun. I tried t be friendly w everyone. Everyone is mostly aunties and uncles. There are only 3 kids excluding sist and i -.- .. But had fun. Did loads of stuff. I dreaded plane rides and there were many tuberbulance or whatever those stewardess call them. My tour leader told us some ghost stories and i'm scared of hotels and their rooms D: .. But at least there were hot spring :D ! I went for the outdoor one on the last day tt i'll be staying in a hot spring hotel. It's really hot and everyone has t strip naked, >< . The thought of it is disgusting. But i enjoy hot spring (this is lame.) Heeeeh. The hot spring hotels have tatami mats (floor) t sleep on. Kinda cool. Kinda comfortable :D . Ohya, the food. Ate seafood. There is even hands on t cook one of our lunch. The beansprout totally got burnt -.- . Chouta? Haha, everyday for breakfast, i would see scrambled egg and salmon. I WAS THERE FOR RAMEN. But at least i ate ramen a few times. Abt 3? Mostly everything there is either seafood or veges. I guess this is almost everything. I can't really remember either. But i kno i dislike the plane food and smell, which makes me puke =.= ..

Everyone has got a dream to escape from reality.

Where it's suppose to be, is right here.

(:(: ! Had a BOOMING time today :D . It's `1E's , first class outing. It was superdiduper fun. Hahah!

Woke up @ 8
Chiong to bus stop @ 0915
Phoned Aidil @ 930
Realised we were late @ 935
Met Aidil at White Sands Interchange @ 1015?
Chiong for a bus @ 1020
Missed the bus we chiong-ed @ 1024
Waited for the other bus @ 1027
Reached destination @ 1040
Went to K-box! @ 11+?
Sang our hearts out till - 1430
Saw Primary Sch teacher @ 1450
Met Aidil and Aisha @ -- .
Took Neo-Prints (or whatever that is) @ -- ?
Walked to White Sands @ 1600+?
Homed @ 1700+ (: .

Heeeeeeeh, the funny thing abt the group of us at K-Box is tt, only when time was going t be up, we screamed, sang and danced like a bunch of mad ppl. Heeeh :D . Everytime when a person comes in, we'll shut up and stare. Hahah, whatthehell :D ! My toe was hurting like hell and we went for lots of toilet rounds. Hahaha, even though we didn't drink anything tt much. -.- My damned toe. Had a whole lot of fun today. Shanice even thought of the most craziest idea ; Clique go as 1 group t K-Box. Oh, i tell you, after this outing, i gotta huge headache. Haiz.

It's as easy to have a great deal out of it (: .

Make a start.

Teeeeeeeee :B ! Andrea got herself a new gan :D . CHRISLYN JIEJIE ! Heeeeeh :D !! Suddenly felt so excited and happy :D:D !

Just waited for Maple t load and going t play it :] ! It has been weeks since i last touched my account. Heeeeeh :) .

This is going t be a short post :/ . Cuz i've got nothing t crap abt. Haiz. :/ .

Shanice say she's drunk. Puhlease. -.- She's mad. Seriously. Out of her mind! Pssh. Cooool, she skipped SYF. I even talked t her this afternoon and she didn't say anything abt SYF. STF manzxc! (Y) But she really forgot abt it. I just tell her t give the excuse tt she's drunk and so, she can't come. Teacher will be in terrible shock :D ! Maybe even worst, they'll die or give a very stupid police report. " SHE DRANK ALCOHOL! " . Whatthehell.

Got songs from 2 of my brother's CDs. Hahah! Ehh, i wna go liao. Byeeee :D .

You thought that this was ending, but it was just the beginning (: .

Understanding is the other key.

(:(: I feel happy now tt at least our clique responded t what i say :D:D . Okay, so now, guys we understand? Yaaaaye! At least we don't hate each other anymore. Anyway, some of us wasn't involved, but got dragged in. So, yeah, it's over now.

Ahhhh, going overseas :) . This is fun. I can escape from all the Singaporeans and lead a few peaceful days in Japan. That would be cooool :D:D ! I cannot contain my excitement :] . But i'm going t miss the people who i love in Singapore. But, heeeeh, it's not like i'll be there forever :B . The crappy thing abt is tt luggage have t be at a weight tt is expected. The weight is 60kg? Yeah, i think it's enuff. It's like the weight of my mother :X . And my mother is heavy. I can't carry her. (Duh.) -.- , i'm not strong. Gaga.

Teeeeeee :D ! It's early in the morn on Thursday! I stayed up tt early and get t use the compt for a long period of time.

When the winds subside, everything will be alright :) .

Let's stitch it up together, giving all we've got :) .

TO MY DEAREST CLIQUE :
Heeeey, just t let you guys kno, i'm not siding anyone. I'm just trying t make you guys t patch up again. But i don't really kno how. All tt i can do now is t pray. To allow me t believe and t have the faith and courage. Yeah, I'm a christian, i pray more thn you expect.

Yeah, i believe tt you guys would eventually patch up. If you guys didn't kno, we actually have a really strong bond. We hang onto each other in time of need. We always ensure tt each member in the clique gets t be happy. I guess sometimes, i do neglect some of you too. I'm sorry. But most of the time tt we spent together are filled w smiles and laughter. We never did fought this badly. Yeah, i should say tt this is our first clique 'break out'.

But overall, we were all happy w each other. I want t let you guys kno tt i really love you guys and i'm happy t be in this clique. But now, we're missing a important member and it isn't as happy as it used too. You guys might say tt even though we're not a clique at all we'll still be happy. But i don't think so. You guys still remember the times we spent? Aidil's birthday, i still remember clearly. All the singing we did, all remembered. Stayed backs, remembered too. After all our swimming lessons? I still remember tt day after swimming lesson, we guys actually cared abt me and tried t make me happy. And i didn't get t say thanks yet.

Don't you guys want the lives we had before this thing started? I'M NOT BLAMING ANYONE. But i kno i can't get what i want. But i'll say what i want.

- I want the clique t seal and heal the wound tt is left open. And how? I kno, we can patch up by patching back :) .

- I want us t be more open and happy w each other.

- I want us t push away all the bad thoughts.

- I want us t accept all our differences and live w it. I can do it, can you guys do it? I KNO YOU CAN :D ! Whether you're a gay, a lesbian, a unisex, a alien, a human, a shit, a damned thing, a ass, anything.. I'll still accept you.

- I want more understanding between us.

- I want us t learn t just be happy w each other.

Yeah, too much wanting. Now it's the wishing. well, it's almost the same. Just change the want part, t a wish. It'll still sound the same. Okay, i'm making this msg a drag. I'm sorry guys for me and my long story. But it's not a story, it's true! I'm just hoping tt you guys would understand. I kno tt you guys are not happy at all. We just gotta mend this friendship. No one likes losing a friendship cuz i kno how it feels. You guys kno too, right? See, we understand each other so much but the problem is, we don't kno how t 'hear it properly'. We can't just escape this alright? Deal w it people! Okay, i don't really kno how t deal w it either. But in the end, it still all ends up t your decision. Your every step can change everything. If all of us change for the better, we'll in the end benefit and be happy w each other. All i'm going t do later is pray thn get a rest. It's late now.

I kno tt everything will end off okay. Cuz i kno. It's always like this. God bless you people :D . (L) So, what am i going t do now? (I'll try t see if any of the clique's members will respond t what i've just said.) Yeah, you guys are going t decide what's better. Erm, if you think i'm controlling thn nevermind. Just hear me out. Well, you alr did. There, toot. On top ^ You read it liao. I'M NOT JUDGING AR! No use doing tt. But if we need help now, we gotta wait. I took this quote somewhere. But it's something more religious.

' Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, paitently, lovingly, God replied;
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
and the Master so gently said, "Wait." (More, but too long) '

Okay, haiz, i hope our fights will vanish and disappear.

Cast your cares upon the Lord, for he cares about you.
- I Peter 5:7

Hahahah, smile guys. I still want us t be together as one :D ! No worries hor :) . Just chillax. Heeeeh :B . Ohh.. Gotta go and print stuff now. ILOVEYOUGUYS! You guys love each other too? AND THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES GUYS!

Every tiny step made by anyone, makes a huge difference. Are we risking?

:B Back from all the chaos. :) It's a holiday today, so i got t stay home and not go t sch. I feel happy and unhappy abt tt though. Ohya, i did not say abt my results in my result slip did i? Nooope, so i'll say it now as i've got nothing to say :) .

RESULTS ;
- English : B3
- Chinese : C6
- Mathematics : A1
- Science : A2
- Geography : A2
- Literature : C6
- Design and Technology : A1
- Art : A2
- Civil & Moral Education : A

Obviously, my chinese and literature pretty much suck. My chinese is expected to suck anyw :/ . At least my maths has improved :D . Haiz, literature. *Shakes head, shakes head* But mum still thinks it's ok. She didn't talk abt enrolling me into a tuition lesson or anything liddat. Coool ;) . Thank God she skipped that part. But not much lectures i've got, rather :) . AT LAST, i made mum proud :D .

My maid went for a short vacation - a month. Yeah, i can't say it's short. -__- She went back to her country this morn and surprisingly, i woke up early to greet her a goodbye. But i didn't have the strength t get myself up t send her t the airport -.- . But at least i said goodbye D: !

Well, tmrw, kor is going t leave for Shanghai w his sch :D ! So coool :D:D . He's leaving early too. Abt 4+ i guess? So maybe, maybe will be going out tonight for a dinner :D . Thn when he gets back, i'll have t go. ): Aaaawww, this is just bad.

After he comes back, mum, sissy and i will be leaving for Japan :D ! This is even better ^^ ! Of course i'll take lots of pictures :) . But not of nude people .__. , duh -.- . Even though i'll be soon looking at nude women as there will be a hot spring. Well, humans have t stripped entirely naked t get in. Or else "GET OUT PLEASE" . But yeah, i guess they won't say get out or anything liddat. Cuz i've heard tt they're kind people? But they'll stare at you. Tt's even scarier cuz you're not wearing anything. So, i guess i learnt a lesson for not staring at people? Even though i'm so used t staring. I just do it. I have t stare. I dunno why :D ! Ohoh, tt time, during maths lesson, teacher was teaching, thn me keep staring at her. Thn she look at me funny funny. Lawl :D !

Have been active in facebook recently. Loool :D . Not very active on blogger uh? >.< Just help kor take a picture of himself and his 'art'. Haha :'D . I got t take at least 20+ snapshots of it. Cuz of all the damn lighting and shakes. .__. But in the end, he edited it and it turned out alright :) .

Shit, gotta go :/ ..

It's called 'believe', everyone has to.

Haven't been on the comp for a few days alr. Even though exams are over, i'm still quite busy. Yeah, not exactly busy as i've been staying back and coming home thn play the guitar thn nap thn wake up, thn bathe, thn eat, thn chiong stuffs in sch. -.- Whatthehell. Hols coming ma, so slack slack a bit nia. But in the end, it seems such a beautiful day. Loool :D . Haaaai, just learnt; whn i look at you by Miley Cyrus. Loool -.- . Kinda ok luh, have not mastered it well yet. But it's easy. Sure can wan luh. Like what Mdm Lid said, " Must BELIEVE wan .. " Whatthehell sia :D . Yeah, she's quite right, i guess? I dunno :) .

Okok, got my result slip today. Not bad luh, but still have to work harder in my chinese and literature T.T .. That suck. Psssssssssh :/ . And 1e1 is organizing some class outing. Loool :D . At least never clash w the dates i'm going overseas :D:D !

Going off now :D .

It's not tumbling, i know.

This is just, life .

Heeeeeeey, again -.- ! Haiz, i'm so bored at home ; doing nothing. Just helped RL w her blog, adding the links for her :D !

I guess this post is going to be a short one.. I've got almost nothing to post about :D ! Errrrm, okayee, i'm feeling so much better today, :) . My msn soot liao and it somehow pissed me off a lil. But nvm :D . Great, i used so much effort just to kill an flying ant. But, it's BIG though.. -.-

Shit, gotta go :/ .. -.-

I wished i knew .

Time to learn to fly .

Heeeeeeyzxc :D . Back from LC, :) . Great uh, exams all finish liao. AT LAST. But on Monday and Tues got CCA! That suck :/ . Psssssssh!

Yeeeeeeeeees! Get to slack :) . Haiz, i dunno why i'm stressing myself so much. Well, all i kno is tt somet is just bothering me and i dunno how to deal w it. It's not somet in sch but somet personal. Yeah, great :/ . Lool, my brother just came home. Ohh, great. I wna be alone.. -.-

Anyway, i'll be free today and Friday :D ! Yaaaye :) , cuz i don't even feel like going out at all. Pssssssh luh.

Shit, gotta go. :/ -.-